Journal
Saturday, February 25, 2006 >Theres a minor add-on to the voices. Feel free to check it out.
Thursday, February 23, 2006 >Well, there would be 2 seperate posts but i just clump Had a test today. Most probably i would flung it. Shouldn't have fell asleep yesterday. Only have myself to blame. Why am I such a failure? Today, you told me to do my best. And yet, i have seriously not putting enough effort. Im afraid that i would fail your expectation. But i would try my very best, don't worry.
-Living in shadows-
People are hard to please.
I guess most people encounter this situation before.
Whenever someone asks you something, if you say the real thing, they will not believe you. So you decided to do the otherwise the next time. And now, when you say the fake thing, they do not believe you either. Since eitherway you are not prepared to trust people, why bother asking? Search yourself!
Troublesome people.
Sunday, February 19, 2006 >Why can't people admit their own mistakes and pushing the blame onto others? Does this make you feel good and psycho yourself into thinking you did not make any mistakes?
I do admit i make a mistake, i admit it. But how can people able to laugh at their own failure without realising where they themselves went wrong? Can't you guys think about your actions and repent? Or at least, have the courage to admit it?
This is meant for a group of people, if you think you are the one, then repent on it.
-Hopes to the Hades-
Friday, February 17, 2006 >I do not give a fcuk wheather you understand what I'm writing, This place is just to pen down my thoughts, not to let you know my through here.
Tears swallowed, drowned the heart. Unstable motion, Drowned from thoughts and feelings, When will the sunshine arrive?
Tomorrow will be the camcraft competition. Hope everything goes well like the theory part! May we be able to qualify.
Thursday, February 16, 2006 >Valentine passed. Burden off the neck. Fading in the shadows of you.
Can you understand? Who am I now actually?
Monday, February 13, 2006 >Today won't be any pessimistic stuffs, just gonna post up a rather.. weird "game".. well, it might just take off u 1min? Sometimes, going back to the basics isn't a bad thing. http://www.cartoonnetwork.com/games/action/tj/whatsthecatch/game.swf
And here's another video, which is somethings like.. Spiderman + Power Rangers? Its a rather weird video. Well, if you can spare around 25-30mins, try and take a look at it. Take it as a form of de-stress! http://youtube.com/w/toei-spider-man-ep-1---fansubbed-in-english?v=LOHwSnAIVc8&search=japanese%2
Saturday, February 11, 2006 >Quotations.
As you enveloped my mind, thoughts are all about you. I hope you would not walk out on the ghost of me. My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
I hope that you could pull out some time for me and give both of us a chance to be together. Waiting isn't a problem, losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get. May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Friday, February 10, 2006 >I, I dont know why i miss you so much, Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch.
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction, And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.
If you call me today, Ill say that Im fine. But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice, Its just a lie. You knew what you had, You still walked away leaving me in this mess. My love for you is deep and meaningless.
You, you knew what you were doing to me. And I, I guess I was too blind to see. Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad. But I'd do it again to relive what we had,
Damn thats sad
There are many things left to remind me, Of a love that I just cant leave behind me.
>Imagine when there was a day where you went to the wet-market to get some fruits. Due to a moment of indolent, you did not pick the fruits yourself and allowed the stallholder to take the job for you. When you reached home, you realised that half of all the fruits you bought were all rotten on the outside. Hopeful of the other half, you cut them and found out that the core is rotten as well. By now, most must have been ranting off their bloody mouth cursing and swearing at the stall-holder.
Did you ever try and find out who's fault is it exactly before pin-pointing the blame? Or isit our human nature to shirk all our own responsibility and escape scott free psychologically? Did anyone think through the process of whose fault is it in the first place? Even if you did that, do you have the courage to admit that it was your own fault?
So is the rotten core actually refers to us humans? We look perfectly allright on the outside but what is exactly inside? Just a damn bag of bones inside which inculcates fear.
Another moral of this story is that, never understand a person too well, or else, ur relationship might sour.
Saturday, February 04, 2006 > I would say that I haven;t posted any post so early. For your info, its currently 4.30am now where most of you in ur deep slumber having sweet dreams i hope, or at least, an empty mind. It beats better having a nightmare ya?
Everyday is just like a nightmare, not knowing what will happen next, emotions tingle just like leaves, you never know that it has fallen.
Anyway, I came across this sentence, or rather, word for thoughts. "Whats the value of a lifetime?"
Life has no value, at least for me. Tell me whats life? What is it for? Life is just sorrow. Plain sorrow.
If any fellow schoolmates remember the 2nd part, pls do inform me. In case your do get what's the 2nd part, its just the answer to the Qn given which i disagree totally.
Voices
Quotes
"if someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them."
(ripped from solasura-honz)
As you envelope my mind,
thoughts are all about you.
I hope that you could walk into the ghost of me.
My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
Could you pull out some time for me
and give both of us a chance to be together.
Waiting isn't a problem,
losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get.
May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.
A recollection of poetry
"Twilight funeral"
Blackened and cold is the dusk
A veil where the shadows watch
Behind the dim requiems of light
When blindness envelopes our eyes
Silent and unholy is the dusk
A hole where the demons smirk
Beyond the clutters of human life
When deafness embraces our ears
Sable nothingness is the dusk
A shroud where the ravens flock
Tainting the purity of white clouds
When darkness devours our hearts
Inevitable death is the dusk
A cloak where the daggers hide
Under the facade of tranquility
When mortality is but a quip
- Solasura
"Muted Joy"
Words appearing before aquamarine eyes,
Inner warmth awakened.
Coldened heart was melted,
returning to its liquidfied state.
Hopes of rain fallen,
sheltered by feelings.
Flooded everywhere,
but not a single drop here.
Tune rings by the ears,
Emotions being mixed up.
Weak and deplorable,
Just takes the shape of you.
Ensnared by you,
Unintentionally or intentionally,
unable to be freed,
till Reaper's Scythe appears.
Which will appear first, rain or scythe?
"Solitude"
Time flies when words strung out,
numbing the bitter nerve.
Defrostation took place,
Everything seem to be in summer,
From the frosted white fingers,
darkness in the heart,
you brought warmth and light.
Turning upon an unretaliatable liquid.
Just as words strung out once again,
froze all happiness in me.
Bitterness awakened,
Negligible autumn, forver winterness.
Eclipse seems to take place forever.
Light and warmth never took place,
Darkness and chill,
mutated the mind into an unfeeling solid.
When solitude occurs, does anyone bothers?
- Takizawa
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