Journal
Tuesday, September 30, 2008 >alright. since yang blog same song, now its changed. but meaning remains the same...
played frisbee today with the j-ones. think they are improving on their defence now! =DDD. seeing few of them shake head about their promos, hope u guys dont get retained or whatsoever..
today chem test too, hope it will be fine.. bahh.>.<
sd was something about grad day which is coming next friday. my guess is that most people can't wait for the day to come.. only minority will hope that the day will not come so soon...
i hope to graduate from a lvls, but not from jc... becus becus becus...
wrote somethings about ur dream for community and for the world. wonder what is it for but can we ever reduce the harm done to nature and be able to appreciate it? gd example.. night study, polyfoam cups and plate and plastic spoon every night.. average 200 every night?
Friday, September 26, 2008 >new song now, the script: the man who can't move.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move, Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand, Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am, Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man, I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, How can I move on when I've been in love with you...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Policeman says son you can't stay here, I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year, Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
People talk about the guy Whos waiting on a girl... Oohoohwoo There are no holes in his shoes But a big hole in his world... Hmmmm
Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved, And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, And you'll come running to the corner... Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved I'm the man who can't be moved...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. [Repeat in background]
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
cant move without you.
>Today, had a weekly chit chat with mr lim.. some things that i learnt and realised.
what i really want in future is to learn,share and help. both nature and people. in the mean time, with travelling as well. but note, cannot self indulge!
committment,composure,confidence,challenges.
a little warning to all, especially its exam time now. Life is not about studying, don't lose yourself.
interesting quote: Boys get rich will turn bad, girls turn bad to get rich. hmms.
comon travel agencies, reply!
played frisbee and had a collision too.. leg pain leg pain. >.<
Thursday, September 25, 2008 >today, i learnt that we are all actually empty and rubbish, scientifically proven. this shows how humans are a waste of space and nonsense. damn, being cynical again...
you are part of me... but i am not part of you, definately.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008 >i guess i need a facade again.. the one that have been left there for nearly 2 yrs...
Saturday, September 20, 2008 >snow mountain trip more or less confirmed, hope there will be tickets to taiwan... if not, swim there ar-.-. to me, it is a really a trip of see+learn+experience+enjoy+... the last thing is something i hope that will happen and will try to make it happen. hopefully. but im not that ambitious, just hope a few can reach that stage. and i think mr lim wants that too. lets see.
went to fns with few people today and talked about things after that. i think that window period that i told dorville which was because of something, i think i missed out alot. sorry b10. but if i am given a chance to turn back time, i will still make the same decision i guess.
Thursday, September 18, 2008 >today got back maths paper.. quite happy that i finally got my first A throughtout my whole jc life. >.< but its a borderline A and not actually up to what i wanted to get at first. anyways..
n remembered about something that my friends and i talked about in the past. during exam time, when you are entering the exam hall, some friends will come and say they never study... study a little bit and because u really nv study, so agree with them too. when paper finishes, you ask him how was it and he tell you fail or die alr.. you agree too. when return paper.. this person gets like A or B and leave u there really failing the exam!
WHAT THE **** MAN?!
why cant people just be honest about it. hate this type of people, irritating bastards.
this is not with reference to anyone so dont anyhow guess.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 >thanks thanks for the free mp3 player lazy! hehs. =)). just what i needed, phone do not have enough memory already.. >.<
results arent turning out good for most people, except some of my classmates which are quite freaky.. don't know how they study one>.<. sigh, chem p1 below class avg.. =( tink my physics is the bottom few too. this arent the most impt one because there's something tts more impt.. dont give up.
snow mountain issues cleared and that is a huge thing off my mind. =D but its just like from very bad to bad. =/
anyways, study hard everyone! all the best...
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 >WOOOOOHOOOOO.
i think im on cloud's one million now when my aunt agreed to loan me the money and said in cantonese but i translate it here "tell me the amount u need and call me to tell me when u need". wahahhahahaha super duper happy. power to yigujie! hehs.=DD
yushan(3952m), xiang yang shan(3603m), xue shan(3886m), here i come!
>welcome back 55!!
today had to stay back in school because of a committment i made since last week and cant settle it earlier because have to be together. i can understand the intention behind it and at first, thought like no one going which i think is something that shouldn't happen as far as possible. i think in the end had 5ppl going which i think was good and happy. hope she had a pleasant surprise with their sophisticated planning(quoted from mandy), -.-.
currently having soo many things on my mind that i don't know how to start which made me rather nuah towards studying.. sigh. should try and finish these business by tonight. firstly, snow mountain trip money!! shall go call later, good luck wethro jong.>.<
n today, when collecting grad night money, think mrs labrooy was quite shock to know im not going and ya.. sorry class. have a great time urself yea! enjoy enjoy. i think on my way up(if i can go), i will think of you guys..
had the physics mcq thing td too.. and was quite funny during the "punishment" of 1 qn wrong 5 pushup. president had to do 75!! hehs. =p i did 40 though, and this mark is rather constant for me.. >.< tomorrow one more paper! put your horse come!! =))
now, bathing time and think of how to borrow... and finish other unfinished business...
lastly, we have some new names today too. 1)Coel Jhe 2)Coderick Rhen 3)Hndrew Aoon (speak with tamil accent) 4)Larcus Meong 5)Licole Nek 6)Xhu Sian(who sian?) 7)Bachel Roey 8)Terome Jan 9)Jar Kun 10)Rabriel God *drum roll.* DICOLE NORVILLE!!!!=pp
Sunday, September 14, 2008 >listening to some songs n really love this few part...
Power of love. Lost is how Im feeling lying in your arms When the world outsides too Much to take That all ends when Im with you
Even though there may be times It seems Im far away Never wonder where I am cause I am always by your side...
you took my heart away.
You took my heart away When my whole world was grey You gave me everything and a little bit more And when it’s cold at night And you sleep by my side You become the meaning of my life . . .
hmm, when this 2 songs form up, it becomes the power of love is to take hearts away with you. nottinottinotti. stupidstupidstupid. should put back what u dont want... or rather, take back what people dont want.
>went to the class blog and heard the song, immediately the first sentence, "everybody is looking for that somthing..."
i have found mine but yet, it is so hard to reach for it..
i will try my best, not to leave any more regrets. i swear.
>weee. found out more bout yushan.
itinery:
Day 1: Tataka Anbu/Saddle (2.7k) -Front Peak Entrance (0.8k) -Jade Mountain Front Peak (5.8k) -Paiyun Lodge
Day 2: Paiyun Lodge (0.8k) -to South Peak Crossroads (2.5k) -Yuanfong Campground (7.4k) -South Jade Mountain (7.4k) -Yuanfong Campground
Day 3: Yuanfong Campground (2.2k) -Jade Mountain South Peak (2.5k) -Dongsiounan Mountain (8.6k) -Lu Mountain (10.8k) -Yuanfong Campground
Day 4: Yuanfong Campground (2.5k) -to South Peak Crossroads (1.7k) -Jade Mountain Main Peak (1.5k) -Jade Mountain East Peak (4.5k) - Jade Mountain North Peak (5k) - Paiyun Lodge
Day 5: Paiyun Lodge (2.5k) -Jade Mountain West Peak (11k) -Tataka Anbu/Saddle.
but i tink mr lim will cut short it(from what we always know) or add something somewhere.. hehs. awaiting for this great adventure with great friends! woooo.
hope that can go alishan and jhongyang mine waterfall too! =DD.
yushan main peak summit marker! finally played mj ytd till ard 2.30-3am. n td slept till 3.30! haha. damn song=D
Saturday, September 13, 2008 >depart depart depart. it was the surprising arrival of man and small girl that kind of brighten the day with their funny actions/ideas. depart depart depart.
can life be without any departures?
parting thoughts: sadness is a type of happiness.
Friday, September 12, 2008 >wooo. everything is finally over, not really everything actually but well.. went to find mr lim and had physics pap 1.5. sajc 2001 prelim mcq. tink that made my day more fulfilling rather than just play since the info is still fresh. talked about snow mountain after that. going to taiwan formosa(yu shan 3954m) in Yushan National Park (玉山國家公園), nantou county. beautiful pictures of the mountain and really excited about it!!!! shall go read up more first. hehs.
today went out with the class and christopher was shopping for his prom clothings and he didnt know im not going till like when we are going back that mandy said i wasn't going. and he sounded shock too. haha. while shopping, my mind wasn't really with them the whole time and thinking of many other things, like about yushan, my parents part, will be missing a part with the class, and soon it is when people in your life for this 2 yrs will start leaving.. and things will start almost from 0 again. just like a cycle after secondary school. hate this totally. argh.
my dad also just told me that if i can settle the money, he will let me go! wooohoooo! im so happy now but now, shall have to think of how to borrow money.. bahh..
Thursday, September 11, 2008 >almost the last paper now! hehs. n tomorrow's farewell have been postponed... quite happy that its postponed. =D cant wait for prelims to be over.. weeee.
take care mong! n enjoy ur time over there! hehs. had a good catch-up today too.=)) dreams are light sundials, it cant work without light that is brought to you from family, friends and loved ones...
new song!
I knew I love you
Maybe it's intuition But some things you just don't question Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant And there it goes I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason Only this sense of completion And in your eyes I see the missing pieces I'm searching for I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you I am complete now that I've found you
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
[but often, we know it after we lose it..] this song quite ridiculous right? how can it ever happen? but the lyrics is nontheless beautiful.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 >today marks the end of killer day! phy pap3 den maths p1. woot.
i have no idea how i did so fast with physics that i can sleep 20mins. my brain was dead from the start because of a lack of sleep last night(but i still managed 5hrs! i fulfilled my promise);). and maths was cheating my feeling.. it was easy for the first 8 qn till the killer four came!! argh. at first was still thinkin if i can get 80.. now, 70 poses a problem too. =(. hope for the best! TI GONG BOH BI! (wanted to try something crazy ytd by not slping becus i didnt finish revising my physics>.<)
today while going home, dorville reminded me about something i thought the other day n wrote too. friday is a happy day because i know exams are over, but farewell saddens me.
on the way to school this morning, i thought of something i realised in the past. sadness is happiness, vice versa too.
2 more days, 2 more papers. enjoy filoss. (bahh, reminds me of monsterlim.)
Monday, September 08, 2008 >chem was bad today.. uhh. entered with a good mood, but still kinda left with a good mood. hehs
well, if you can be happy, why be sad! focus on the happier things though i still know that i may fail pap3. TI GONG BOH BI AR! >.<
goodluck to all those having prelims too!
friday is also the day where we are finally having the farewell, but good or bad choice? after prelims i will be very happy, and you want to chase me away after that.. zzz. though can have one last time of being tgt in odac without the OVER! argh. but as i said, its the last time. not expecting too much not because they are not good or whatsoever, but it is only when we do not expect, we receive the most. isnt it?
this few days, i have been having weird dreams that makes no sense at all. like one moment im here, next moment im there.. weird.. n it has been going on for like 3days i think. a sign? but, of what?
think mrlim had a great week with his own "mini" adventure but refuse to tell me.. uuhhh. tts just this monster.
well, study hard all! all the best! econs tml.. put your horse come!
Friday, September 05, 2008 >TGIF! firstly, happy bday cp. hehs=) though its 18th bday, but seem like 7th one la. =p
well, today was quite a nice day, quite alot of past odac times came back to my mind. like how we just talk in canteen and told boey(buay?) about the berkelah part and some other thgs. seriously missing the xp times and odac times..
dis year, the j-ones seem to be more hardworking, see them studying quite alot but think the theory of 3hour in mph=1hour in lib holds quite well. and some of them are quite worrying to see, like many things don't know/cant do. not a good sign because hope their batch will not have anyone leaving for poly.. maybe after prelims, can see how i can help them by giving some time to them to guide them along. not that im like good but still better>.<. go batch 11!
played frisbee and v.ball too, today i just want to finish 2 phy papers and just exercise n enjoy abit. think i deserve it after so long? and to chiong at sat and sun! smth tts weird is that, i feel chem is getting easier than phy. n phy is like f-diff for some schs.
didnt go with them to meet barney because td my mum have off and cooked dinner(which is rare nowadays) sorry! hope u ppl understand=)
jiayou!. thanks jie(or shld actl b mei?)=p
Thursday, September 04, 2008 >i am seriously getting weary from studying. its too taxing!!! rarrr.
its like no life.. seriously. n i enjoy teaching the j1s td though, they and their rubbish tt lightened my mood for the day. enjoy being with them, but the time will come when the time comes... where i have to say, goodbye.
watched wall-e td too, with parents n my auntie n uncle. it was free because from some promotion thingy n have wall-e notebooks(just nice i needed one!) n posters too. hehe. free-thinker. the movie was nice, it not only depicts human relationship through non-animate objects and there are many things that are worth thinking about.. prominent ones will be about the environment and are humans too smart for their own good? (uhh, cynicism again.. but well..) shldnt spoil too much for those who want to watch, i will say its good! (think those ppl who created the robots are vry good too.. its amazing how we create something out of nothing.)
one last thing, the ghost stories last night did give me abit of creeps, u know who you are! haha. n u can try doing that one day n tell me what u see? =x
enjoy!
Tuesday, September 02, 2008 >destiny is proportional to the square of your extras.
thought of this today, need to motivate myself to study harder! and for all u people out there, remember, your destiny is up to yourself to make.
word of the day: Amorphophallus! largest unbrached inflorescence.
few more days to prelim again.. sigh. hope it can turn well.. feeling unprepared and tired..=(
Monday, September 01, 2008 >1st of september, teachers day. suppose to be a holiday isn't it? but throughout these years, this day has always been in the holiday. and so, should there be actually a change in the date of teacher's day? or moe did it on purpose because they think that we have too much holidays.. hmms.
studied in school today, did physics. i think lost abit of momentum, shall pick it up again!=D hopefully can start peaking ard wed-thurs. think i can because tts the day where i will do maths and maths is fun!
got the book too, it was the last one. treasure treasure! dont lost it=)
and now worried for the jones nov xp too, their trainings doesnt give a sign that they are ready. though they have grown since the start of the year, its still quite far from the stage they have to be. the attitude, mentality, physical, many many more needs polishing. I admit that their batch is stronger in terms of quantity, but quality is far from the odac standard.. doubt any jones will b reading this but fortunately or unfortunately, if u read this, shall remind you smth. If you realise something is not done and no one is doing it, go and do it! the problem is everybody is waiting for somebody to do something that anybody can do but nobody is doing it. sounds familier? if not, go KTF. dont know KTF? then quit odac.
odac is like a bed of roses, you need to get past the thorns to reach the top.
Voices
Quotes
"if someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them."
(ripped from solasura-honz)
As you envelope my mind,
thoughts are all about you.
I hope that you could walk into the ghost of me.
My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
Could you pull out some time for me
and give both of us a chance to be together.
Waiting isn't a problem,
losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get.
May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.
A recollection of poetry
"Twilight funeral"
Blackened and cold is the dusk
A veil where the shadows watch
Behind the dim requiems of light
When blindness envelopes our eyes
Silent and unholy is the dusk
A hole where the demons smirk
Beyond the clutters of human life
When deafness embraces our ears
Sable nothingness is the dusk
A shroud where the ravens flock
Tainting the purity of white clouds
When darkness devours our hearts
Inevitable death is the dusk
A cloak where the daggers hide
Under the facade of tranquility
When mortality is but a quip
- Solasura
"Muted Joy"
Words appearing before aquamarine eyes,
Inner warmth awakened.
Coldened heart was melted,
returning to its liquidfied state.
Hopes of rain fallen,
sheltered by feelings.
Flooded everywhere,
but not a single drop here.
Tune rings by the ears,
Emotions being mixed up.
Weak and deplorable,
Just takes the shape of you.
Ensnared by you,
Unintentionally or intentionally,
unable to be freed,
till Reaper's Scythe appears.
Which will appear first, rain or scythe?
"Solitude"
Time flies when words strung out,
numbing the bitter nerve.
Defrostation took place,
Everything seem to be in summer,
From the frosted white fingers,
darkness in the heart,
you brought warmth and light.
Turning upon an unretaliatable liquid.
Just as words strung out once again,
froze all happiness in me.
Bitterness awakened,
Negligible autumn, forver winterness.
Eclipse seems to take place forever.
Light and warmth never took place,
Darkness and chill,
mutated the mind into an unfeeling solid.
When solitude occurs, does anyone bothers?
- Takizawa
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