Journal
Thursday, January 29, 2009 >it is time for new beginnings. new year means the start of new things.
in the process of job hunting now and leaving this job soon. time to let it go.. let them go.
was watching the j1s performence on youtube, they did put in alot of effort in preparing it and fo course, the man was there with his songs. over the rainbow was one of it and it seemed like a montage... for all odacers watching it.
_________________________________________________________________ relishing every single xp i went to since j1...
june2007 was totally chamah and what i can say is, "endure and enjoy." nov2007 was leadership xp... "An expedition is a tough and challeging journey with clear objectives that are difficult to achieve, adventurous in nature and rich in learning." march2008 was teaching the juniors.. "connect and transfer" june2008 was not easy to come by.. all the begging and pleading. 3Ps "patience,persistance,perseverance" dec2008 taiwan xp was the fruit of everything above that gave my parents to trust to let me go. "odac is like a bed of roses where u need to get past the thorns to get to the top." and i just cant help to think of this, "walk slowly, breath deeply, drink lots of water"
but for everyone who reads this...
Walk slowly , Breath deeply , Admire and treasure marvels of life. to see, to smell, so as to treasure.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 >first day of cny means visit, eat, angpao, gamble. hehe. this will go on for tml as well! hehehe. =DD
everyone enjoy ur CNY!! =)
Sunday, January 25, 2009 >reunionS!
had a odac reunion and was quite nice to see those army guys and hearing its quite easy. hehehe. =DD. gotta go train upper body to get more prepared. and had a reunion dinner with my dad's side.. the food werent very good but the bbq pork n chicken was damn nice. hohoho=D.
tomorrow will be start of CNY! mahjong mahjong mahjong. ang pao ang pao ang pao. eat eat eat. basically, INDULGE! xD
happy NIU year all!! =)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 >yesterday was a day of downs followed by ups and downs and.. a time of facing it.
what an eventful day..
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 >tml is finally my day off! woohoo. gonna do everything that i wanna do.. just that mayb still not enuff time to do so. CNY is coming soon too, ang paos n mahjong and.. weee! =D
ok. kana tagged by jerome.. sianz A.Each tagged person must write 8 things about themselves on their blogs. B.At the end, choose and tag 8 people. -.-
1) i like nature, eg plants,mountains etc. many may say boring and stuff but till u discover the beauty of it.. and u will understand
2) i dont eat beef=)
3) running is fun but dont have much time to do much training because of work. zzz..
4) i can't seem to gain weight. argh.
5) waiting is indeed my forte. wait wait wait. till now still waiting.
6) i dont want to leave cj odac.. can i forever be in it?? sigh.
7) CJ is really great place and there is no regrets to be in it.. or maybe.. at most one only. CJ ROCKS.
8) thank you cj, odac and t14, batch x, mr lim and all other teachers..
who i wanna tag: whoever that read this!!=)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 >CNY coming soon, looking forward to it. paycheck coming too! wee. $$$$. but, i want something else.. congrats to all those who got back your O lvl results! a lvls coming soon too.. and NS. life is so unpredicatable yet destined.
in a darkened room, all alone. your heart is cold and lost the will to love, like a broken arrow.
nobody wants to be lonely nobody wants to cry
true?
Sunday, January 11, 2009 >saw this on nd blog.. really like it.
one day, all of us will die. But let's concentrate on living with a passion for life, so that before we die, we will not regret that we had not lived...and so that our lives will be a powerful inspiration for others to live with passion."
Friday, January 09, 2009 >it has been work work and work for the past many days till today i took off! went to cj open house.. and being treated by jones by some. heh=D quite funny. went to run ytd too, think it was ard 10km lvl-2=) quite a good run becus i dont feel very tired at the end and saw man at bpp too. buying smth without $ =p
had a nostalgic feeling when i got back.. its like though u feel for something, but yet its not urs anymore. cj.. odac.. and.. many more.
i guess we all need to accept loses which suks becus we all dont like to lose but yet almost all the time, we are losing. ironic?
o lvl coming out soon, enjoy it kids! and if its like the past.. As will b out end of this month too.. i wonder, i wonder, i wonder.
Saturday, January 03, 2009 >today is 3rd day of work and 1st day at bukit panjang plaza! =) sales was jialat sia.. hahahha. =X
and catch up with some guys(westsiders) from t14 and chit chat, play pool b4 going to work. its really a nice feeling as we all know that dey are entering tekong soon, real soon. do take care guys!!
when tak sees some people in uniform today, he thinks that he will never ever wear them again.. not in this life anymore...
Friday, January 02, 2009 >now is the 2nd day of 2009. slept from 9am-5pm on 1st day of 2009. what a day to start with. BUT, 2008 was ended with a group of great people and i will never forget you t14!
thank you marcus,marie,michelle,jiayi,christopher,johan,clarisse,james,mandy and david for coming! the rest, i will not forget u either because we are forever 2007/2008 cjc t14. the 2 years had flew past, really fast.
this is the first time i had invited people to my house and i hope everybody had enjoyed! the first group got my directions real well.. (mich,jiayi,marie), 2nd- chris walk halfway the correct way and turned back.. lucky i saw him b4 he went too far. 3rd(the worst) johan,clarisse,james took a totally different direction.. hahaha. xD. mandy took the correct way as well, luckily.. while david had his driver! lols.
the dinner.. hope everybody had enough and the "mess" we made at the first day of 2009. >.<. think michelle and mandy was damn high becus of the vodka and they started coming out weird ideas for the "Dares". =/ eg, tongue to tongue.. lying on another person.. licking ear.. u name it, u have it.
later we tried to watch the sunrise at the open roof multi storey carpark but well.. it was blocked and after returning.. all of them KOed. lols. n think dey needed sleep so nvr had breakfast in the end. well.. hope u had a great night and thanks for coming!
it started great at 2007, and ended well at 2008.. but, this is still not the end...
Voices
Quotes
"if someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them."
(ripped from solasura-honz)
As you envelope my mind,
thoughts are all about you.
I hope that you could walk into the ghost of me.
My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
Could you pull out some time for me
and give both of us a chance to be together.
Waiting isn't a problem,
losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get.
May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.
A recollection of poetry
"Twilight funeral"
Blackened and cold is the dusk
A veil where the shadows watch
Behind the dim requiems of light
When blindness envelopes our eyes
Silent and unholy is the dusk
A hole where the demons smirk
Beyond the clutters of human life
When deafness embraces our ears
Sable nothingness is the dusk
A shroud where the ravens flock
Tainting the purity of white clouds
When darkness devours our hearts
Inevitable death is the dusk
A cloak where the daggers hide
Under the facade of tranquility
When mortality is but a quip
- Solasura
"Muted Joy"
Words appearing before aquamarine eyes,
Inner warmth awakened.
Coldened heart was melted,
returning to its liquidfied state.
Hopes of rain fallen,
sheltered by feelings.
Flooded everywhere,
but not a single drop here.
Tune rings by the ears,
Emotions being mixed up.
Weak and deplorable,
Just takes the shape of you.
Ensnared by you,
Unintentionally or intentionally,
unable to be freed,
till Reaper's Scythe appears.
Which will appear first, rain or scythe?
"Solitude"
Time flies when words strung out,
numbing the bitter nerve.
Defrostation took place,
Everything seem to be in summer,
From the frosted white fingers,
darkness in the heart,
you brought warmth and light.
Turning upon an unretaliatable liquid.
Just as words strung out once again,
froze all happiness in me.
Bitterness awakened,
Negligible autumn, forver winterness.
Eclipse seems to take place forever.
Light and warmth never took place,
Darkness and chill,
mutated the mind into an unfeeling solid.
When solitude occurs, does anyone bothers?
- Takizawa
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