Journal
Thursday, February 25, 2010
>after going to the new place.. its such a crappy place to be. not doing anything and a waste of my time with the stupid start-of-the-day thing and end-of-the-day thing. it is so nonsense that i think im wasting more of my life away... reading my stuff, read newspaper, use comp for awhile, plan for my future.
project100km is going well.. and quite sure will be done by xphysique. sat gonna go try a lvl run.. hm, just test test lvl 0 if i can hit it. hahaha. new track, new record! :)
but today...
a heavy head and a tired body today.. resting well. yawnz.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
>both cny and valentines are over already. its a good cny in a way.. but i feel that cny is getting more and more dull each year. i dont feel the kind of fun times that i had in the past, like more overnight mahjongs, more visitings to other people's house, the rush here and there kinda feeling makes it so much more fun! only had 2 overnight mahjong this year compared to the past where there are much more and like playing 5"dongs" in a night! i wonder if that time would ever come back and since vday and cny falls on the same day, many people still choose cny as the "dominent" day as vday is basically a day to express your love.. and what lies behind is actually a sad story of mahtyrs. go find out if you like! :) and totally agree with the person who always argues with me, we should always express our love every other day. there need not be a special day or someone to say that, "you should show your love on 14th feb" kinda thing.
Comon, for all those out there, tell or show the person your love for the person any day and not only on 14th feb, and most importantly, you mean it when you do it. Life's short, express your love today! (hmm, this sounds like an advert. but anyways.)
Love is so beautiful and powerful that you can do anything for it.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
>everything that has happened so far is so great and 2010 is indeed a great year, but still, im cautious and will not let everything be just like 2009.
I feel that things are going the right track and its so much better. I like this kinda feeling and with the nice talk, lets hope things go super well! =D
Amazing thing that happened today that made me feel that singapore or this world isn't that cold/unfeeling after all. Met a old angmoh guy(its not a singaporean... sadly) while i was buying lunch. then because the store holder was from the country where most of our forefathers came from, there was a little problem communicating which is quite funny. Nontheless, the old guy still managed to get what he wanted as he prolly stayed here for more than a decade and picked up some things here and there. As the situation was quite funny, i looked at him and gave a polite smile, and he just sticked out his tongue just like a small child! damn funny. and then just started chatting. and the shocking thing came, as i was about to get my food, he went ahead and PAID MY LUNCH FOR ME. omg. and told me this, "in future, you can go ahead and do something nice for someone else too". or something along that line and i think its really true. if all of us can just do something nice for a random stranger each day, this world would be so much happier! but yet.. all of us squeeze into the mrt even before the alighting passengers.
SO, even though the meal was $2 only, i'm deeply touched by this act of kindness. Remember, little acts can brighten a person's day. and this brighten up my life.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
>bringing back one old post...
My old Hum II professor used to tell us that wallets are a lot like girls, You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen...
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
what if you found your wallet suddenly?
>Had NVM training on sunday and was super cui.. guess my body is overworked and too tired already... imagine thur, fri gym.. morn got run, sun b4 nvm got bball, dan go climb 2x40. wah siao. >.<. and sat slp at like 5am wake up at 9. hohoho. gone. dan leads to MC for 2 days- mon and tues! sick sick sick.
this 2010 is starting with a great note, everything is going well and im happy. but im afraid. afraid of history repeating itself. I will be very much cautious over things that go too well now so even when shit happens, you can take it in your stride.
i will start today and make a new ending; a happy ending.
When there has been so much love and happiness for someone, it is natural to be reluctant to close such a wonderful chapter in our lives, for moving forward is rarely accomplished without considerable grief and sadness.
And while our sorrow may be profound, the clouds will clear, and the sun will shine on us again. And in that warm, bright light we will find ourselves facing a glorious future. A future of exciting challenges and infinite possibilities, in which the horizon will stretch out before us, trimmed in the heavenly glow of the sunrise of our tomorrow.
