it was totally amazing after posting the letting go post ytd and becus of ding dong bell sending the sms to the wrong person, to me, have to teach bell to let go of some stuff! speaking bout premonition huh..
we are always pursuing things everyday in our life and this is an endless pursuit, endless. contentment doesnt haf a stand in most of our lives. In this endless pursuit, we are always moving forward till we meet with an obstacle that stops us. But somehow, the trend goes in such that whenever a problem arises, there will always be a solution. The solution is then to think of ways to go pass that obstacle. Have we ever thought that we can actually step back, and search for another way to move forward instead? this is a difficult process as we are always tuned to move in one direction and not to look back. (in the case of gaining / losing a loved one, we can always move back- just like letting go)
had gotten an injury since the start of this week and had worsened it on wednesday. Haven;t been running since wed and legs are super itchy to run! comp is around the corner.. surf and sweat.. gd luck odac! we do not haf to be the best, but do our best. (although i hope our best will be the best.)
Other than that injury, ytd had a sudden chest pain and it was hurting like crap, even till now. It induces cough as well.. argh. hope it isnt a heart problem or whatsoever and recover jethro!!
level one, monday.21/1/08. hopefully can break tt! 15rnd, <21.15, here i come.
wow.. time really flies since i last posted on October. many things had happened. both things that i did not expect at all and i expected happened in this short few months.
survived nov xp, failed to go p3, went to adjam and made a couple of rather good friends and what surprised me most was that we are able to keep in contact till now! guess the objective of the adjam had been made in my case huh? after that, night cycling, was alrghit cept that the planning could have actl been better and seriously over-estimation of ourselves>.<. school re-opens, homework starts flooding in again and now having the jones coming in! omg, i seriously feel old and the post of hbko + plant has been passed to me. this was quite a surprise as i didnt expect it at all. competition season is now too, hopefully can win surf and sweat this year, hopefully.
and im now quite stressed as there seems to be so many things to do! competition, plan for jones, school work.. and others... so now i say, CUT DOWN WASTING TIME. hm, am i wasting time now?
"if someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them."
(ripped from solasura-honz)
As you envelope my mind,
thoughts are all about you.
I hope that you could walk into the ghost of me.
My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
Could you pull out some time for me
and give both of us a chance to be together.
Waiting isn't a problem,
losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get.
May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.
A recollection of poetry
"Twilight funeral"
Blackened and cold is the dusk
A veil where the shadows watch
Behind the dim requiems of light
When blindness envelopes our eyes
Silent and unholy is the dusk
A hole where the demons smirk
Beyond the clutters of human life
When deafness embraces our ears
Sable nothingness is the dusk
A shroud where the ravens flock
Tainting the purity of white clouds
When darkness devours our hearts
Inevitable death is the dusk
A cloak where the daggers hide
Under the facade of tranquility
When mortality is but a quip
