last night had a great dinner with some odacers + mr lim! it was great seeing that man again. It has long since we saw him. Though it has been just a short 2-3months, i feel that he has aged and it suddenly feels different. maybe hes tired from xp or smth? i certainly hope that it is just tired.. and not anything else. I hope he had enjoyed that dinner and im quite sure all of us are happy to see that man again!
today went to meet MORE odacers at fns, our tradition.. and coincidentally, we met that man again with angel and nigel! both of them have grown up even more! i am quite excited to see them again few months later and see how they have become! hehe. the day at fns was really nice, just chilling and chatting with this bunch of old great friends. I hope we can keep this bond with us even though we are moving on to different directions!
Amazing friends from an Amazing journey by an Amazing teacher..
another stayover! this time round with the odacers, it was very much different this time round. As each of us meet with our respective endeavours, the topic changes. last time was mostly about our odac things, xp, but now, it is mostly about army, for the guys.
even though we dont talk that much about our odac times, but im sure we all remember it in our hearts, the wonderful journey that all of us been through together. Things that we learn and we will never ever forget..
its now another new beginning! to the place where im posted to and i am happy with this posting! hehe. =DD. Oh Cee airS!
and as a new beginning starts, it will mean some will have to close(temporarily!). like few of our friends like dorv, kannan and sam will be leaving soon. do take care and all the best overseas! =)
and there was a question posted to me today, "did you spend you spend your blockleave well?" and my reply was, it was very well spent, but there are still some answers that i have yet to get...
i doubt you will be reading, but please, i want to have a closing... and only you can write this closing.
went to visit mrs lb last night! saw the super cute baby and ultra energetic emman!! and seriously, he should be a fighter in future or smth. haha. and it was awesome seeing all the familiar faces again before we head off to our own respective places.. guys will be army while girls their tertiary education. it is indeed a case a parting and meeting once again.. i don't like this. Why must we have full of partings in our life??
and it is only till today that i realise i can't let you go at all...
My old Hum II professor used to tell us that wallets are a lot like girls, You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen...
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
I love her so; To forget would seem cold. I love her so; To remember would bring woe. Oh pitable slave, Doth thou knowest the meaning of love? The meaning of the greatest gift from above?
went back to cj today to meet the odacers for frisbee and later we had lunch! it was really great to catch up with few of these guys and girls and that many things had happened and i don't know. partially was due to NS, but mostly it lies with me. even before NS, i did neglect you guys, i'm sorry people. real sorry. realised that i was really wrong... i know my mistake.
even though the feeling of back in school was really nice, the beautiful odac and t14 memories... there were painful ones as well, especially after seeing.. i dont like that feeling. seriously, i need to get it out of my head, my heart. and that i felt i was really old after that, it seemed that the period got me tired, very tired. indeed, everything in this world has a price to pay, and now, i feel that it is a price to large to be paid.
it is just like playing in the mud where there is alot of fun, until u realised that it suddenly became quiksand and suks you into it. you can't do anything but prepare for your death... fortunately, he isn't alone and there are friends by his side trying to pull him out..
after waking up, i feel lost this morning. during the times where everything is planned for us and all we have to do is just to take orders. execute it well and you will be fine. now the we are free from that place, my life doesnt seem to have a direction. i do not have an aim, a direction for me to head towards to. it just feels like you have just been washed ashore on a deserted island, not knowing where to go. can someone help this guy?
the 24 wasnt easy nearing the end and we were all pushing. it was no easy feat that we manage to complete it! was really happy to see everyone giving their all and motivating. nice scene to see... the parade was quite a success and quite happy for getting pb=).furthermore, i was the platoon ic again for the last few days and its like i started it and now, i end it as well. i could see the difference in both marches as i was the ic for the first march, and now the last march. many wanted to die after 2km last time but now, we manage to do 24km! its just like seeing your own kids grow up sort of feeling.
I will miss that place, the commanders, the things we do, and of course, the people there. I will never forget this beautiful journey that we go through together, I LOVE WHISKEY PLATOON 3 FOREVER!!!
after waking up today, i realised that im losing something. something very important to me since the last 2 years. i need to get them all back before i really lose them..
do something in the next 2wks to salvage the past 2 years jethro.
"if someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them."
(ripped from solasura-honz)
As you envelope my mind,
thoughts are all about you.
I hope that you could walk into the ghost of me.
My heart have been delievered to your doorstep, do you accept this mail?
Could you pull out some time for me
and give both of us a chance to be together.
Waiting isn't a problem,
losing you would be the biggest trauma I would get.
May this day where our hearts bond together come soon.
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal.
A recollection of poetry
"Twilight funeral"
Blackened and cold is the dusk
A veil where the shadows watch
Behind the dim requiems of light
When blindness envelopes our eyes
Silent and unholy is the dusk
A hole where the demons smirk
Beyond the clutters of human life
When deafness embraces our ears
Sable nothingness is the dusk
A shroud where the ravens flock
Tainting the purity of white clouds
When darkness devours our hearts
Inevitable death is the dusk
A cloak where the daggers hide
Under the facade of tranquility
When mortality is but a quip
