Journal
Saturday, August 27, 2011
>im going to say goodbye to everything. and just broke down uncontrollably. tears just flowed.
goodbye doramon. goodbye.
i thought i have already forgotten totally, but yet, when i see everything,tears flowed.
i will never see you again and i never want to.
this shall be the last time im crying for you, because, ill never see, talk or think of you again.
This is the end of the book and i want to burn it away.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
>Obsessed, depressed at the same time; And I can't even walk a straight line. I've been lying in the dark; no sunshine, no sunshine, no sunshine.
This sentence very much speaks for how I feel.. that I feel like I'm losing myself much in the hustle & bustle of everyday school life. How much longer can it be hidden, the smile can it still be there. But yet deep inside, I feel so lost. I dont have a clear purpose, and with the injury bugging me.. I can't have my regular dosage of medication(runs) to bring me back or at least, give me some peacetime.
School is indeed tiring and I'm trying to be disciplined which is really tiring.. hope i can get use to it soon.
And this song can't come any better, totally describing how I feel. Been lying in the dark, and I don't think this is really me. But, I can't go round spreading negativity too.
Ill have to spiral out of this negativity. and i love you.
>I won't say that running is my passion because that level is too high. But at least, I can say I love running. Running for the people you love is the most beautiful journey, even if the circumstances may be of the most unfavourable.
I love you. 25 minutes.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
>Its the 30th day today.. from 16th to 14th now, time has flown by quickly! and it is amazing how things has pass by.. I don't know how will everything turn out for me, but I promise, I will do my best in all that I do- in studies, in activities, in friendship and relationship if there is.
have truly understood that loving someone does not equate to possession, just seeing the smile on her face can make the sky brighter at night.
today's song is, At the beginning. :) much memories, and much love.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
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Monday, August 08, 2011
>Today the song to be played is supposed to be Qing fei de yi by Harlem, but can't get it on youtubby.. so it became chi xin jue dui. Another fav song of mine (:. I guess I have too many fav songs..
ANyway, yesterday was a special day because it was the first time with contacts.. and today I took more than an hour to wear it myself! Finally figured it out. =D so happy. Now it is just getting use to the contacts :D YAY!
School's about to start, and in this last week, I'm starting work as well. :) Happy national day in advance!
Saturday, August 06, 2011
>Waiting for you by Hu Yan Bin.
I'm waiting for you..
Friday, August 05, 2011
>Just had a ride from T15 vis chestnut and towards stream 1 via big rock.. it was a really nice place to ride today and I felt the adrenaline whilst riding..
Then the crash came.. my bike died, and my body too. No matter how many times I close my eyes and recall how I fell, There's just no explanation for it.. everything happened so fast. I thought I could ride it out down the slope, but at this point, I just felt a sudden drag and I flew off the bike. Now thinking of it, I felt that the rear came loose and dragged me with it.. which forms like a sudden rear jam brake.. tts why i flew. I dont remember crashing onto anything.. Sigh. gotta get this problem fixed and the brakes as well.. $$$.
And yes, I don't know why but there is something thats always on my mind..
Thursday, August 04, 2011
>BIDDING FOR TODAY! Hope for the best, expect the worse- Get 0 Mods..
2pm is the time! 12more hours from now and its time to sleep soon~. RUnning in town is a whole new experience.. experience of weird stares and stopping at tons and tons of traffic light. Though from Dhoby Ghout to Far East sounds far.. its actually very near and you can get from one end to another in 10minutes.. :)
And bidding is really a bitch. Brain fried for the whole day. -.-
Nice bro talk over at Toa Payoh once again. :D CJ Odac rock your sock. xD
Anyway, song by JFM would be Bryan Adams, everything I do, I do it for you. :)
<3 - hybrid.
Tuesday, August 02, 2011
>Had a talk in SMU and most notably, the last lecture by randy pauch(i think i spelt it correctly?). That lecture is a classic that never age, and his words lives on.. Chase your dream, now or never. Don't be afraid to do it. Just like what people ask, why do you run so much? Currently my reply would be, Why not? and an interesting reply from my friend would be, 'If not wait till you old then run meh?' which is very true. =)
A song which is classic and playing in the air today is George Benson's nothing gonna change my love for you, an ever beautiful song.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you, you ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of, I'll never ask for more than your love.
Monday, August 01, 2011
>Had to urge to go for a run after I reached home.. the feeling of running seems to be an addiction, or an escapade. I find peace in that moment to think through things, but I can't be selfish to let my parents worry since it's the 7th month now. I believe in spirits, and respect that they are just another being. Sometimes, humans may be scarier than spirits, at the very least, you can see through them.
Happy with all my new found friends and the trust forged.. it has been great knowing all of you and the next 4 years im sure it will be enjoyable. (:
With the question of yes or no, right or wrong. It would be a yes and I have no idea if it's right. And there will be no definate answer. Life is contradicting.
All I can say is that, 'I'll be there for you'. I may say it at the end not because I'm expecting anything.. or actually I hope there can be, but still, I'm trying not to hope for anything. So When it comes, ill be much happier(: . back to the topic, Ill say it is because I do not want to live in regrets, just that, I dont want to lose a friend...
And I'm sorry for the awkwardness. I'm fine with it but, not sure for you.. really sorry.
I'll be there for you, These five words I swear to you, When you breath I want to be the air for you, I'll be there for you.
Anyway, JFM today will be playing Back at one by brian mcknight! Enjoy Square. (: hope you will like it.
One, you're like a dream come true.. Two, Just wanna be with you...
